at odds

i waited. i called.i didn't call. i apologized. i withheld apology. you called. you didn't call. you waited. you apologized. i cried. i got mad. i told you off. i told you i loved you. I lied. i held you down. you held me down. i hated you. i hated myself. you hated me. you hated yourself. i didn't let you win. you didn't let me win. nobody won. we are still there. me on one side. you on the other. waiting.