what's wrong, lisa?

i don't really understand it, but i've had way too many emails over the past weeks, not to mention im's and text messages asking me what's wrong, did someone do anything to upset me, etc. i really want to say to all of you, if i am hurting you by not writing to you, not responding to your emails or text messages, i'm just too busy. i don't not love you. i don't not care for you. i just don't have time to answer everybody. i'm in grad school, doing my work. trying to date. trying to be a good person. a friend to my friends. a lover to my lovers. etc. please know. nothing is wrong. i am a person with a life and so are you. if we fought, i am sorry. if i stopped calling you back, it's most likely i didn't like the constant breach of boundaries or invites to paris. otherwise. we are all cool. get it? i'm not mad at anybody. if i was, you'd be the first to know it. i'm depressed sometimes, but that's not your fault, it's because i see men in starbucks complaining about how homeless people smell or me and my good friends make each other feel shitty sometimes without really meaning to. i have social concerns and too much disgust for what i see in this world to not be angry or depressed sometimes, but it's not your fault. you guys should be pissed and depressed too--i'm happy if you aren't, but i'm here to make a difference. not that i'm not a grateful person, i am, i have it good. it's the other suffering fuckers i worry about. i want you to know, while i appreciate you all reaching out to me, i am fine. just not the most happiest person on many days. okay? i hope that clears it up. sorry i'm unavailable. i love you all. except for those of you i just don't know and then i still wish you well. if you are a completely shut down, sociopathic person, i probably still wish you well, because you guys help me write. period.